Progress Shot 09/27/2005

Quick Progress Photo of the Afghan

Sorry about the severe angle.

It's looking like I will probably use the remainder of skein 8, along with a little yarn from skein 9. Technically, it will probably only really use 8 skeins as I did not use the entire skein of a ball that had a few knots in it.

I'm still hoping to finish this week, as in, by Sunday evening.

Tomorrow is my knitting meeting night, so I may get to knit for a couple of hours rather than a few minutes at a time. Of course, I may not make it to the meeting, so there's no telling how much actual knitting time I'll get.

Looking at the blanket on the bed, I wish now that I had made it just a bit wider. It's still okay but I know now for the next time I make this blanket. The next blanket in this pattern won't happen any time soon, though.

For now, I'm just happy to be close to the end of this one. I'm still enjoying knitting it. It just symbolizes a lot of things for me and I need to finish to feel a little more closure. Still having mixed feelings about giving it away...but I will give it away...

Everyday Life

I'm on skein 8 of the blanket. It's almost finished. I took it to my mom's house yesterday for her to measure. She said she wanted it to be a tad longer. Although I was hoping she would say it was already at a good length, deep down I knew the blanket was not quite at the finishing point.

I do believe I'll finish this week. I've already purchased yarn for my son's blanket and for a pair of baby booties I want to make. I still have so many things I want to make but would really prefer to just make something small right now, other than my son's blanket. I'll probably concentrate on cranking out a few sets of booties and some hats.

I'm surprised how much the miscarriage is still a part of my life. Some days I'm sailing along thinking I'm okay and then something will trigger the pain. It isn't crippling me but it's most certainly affecting me. I'm told this is all still very normal.

Some may wonder if I'm hurting from the loss, why in the world would I knit baby items? Truthfully, the very reason I ever learned to knit was to make baby items. The pieces will either be given as gifts, donated for charity, or saved for future possibilities.

In the meantime, I'm trying to finish the blanket for my mom, spend time with my family, get my life back to something that feels normal, and gear up for shopping for holiday gifts. I'm just coping, dealing, living.